I'll be home tomorrow, finally. Since the day I came to Delhi to study, I never felt like I belong here. There was some force, always pulling me back home. I, now think that I have understood why so many Indians do not choose to settle abroad (even though they get everything they don't get in India). Most of them always return to their motherland. Those who don't, make me wonder how they manage to keep away.
I can't.
Dad told me over the phone that seeing my parents is also one of my responsibilities The only reason that stops me from going back home is that I'll only find myself feeling miserable when I come back to Delhi.
I am in Delhi and I get used to those rickshaw rides and washing clothes everyday (some things I don't need to do at home). There are friends to hang out with (school friends have now made their own friends and we find it hard to get along). Above all, there's a purpose. That purpose is education (we all know its importance). There's more freedom (not that there's any less at home, Mom). There's nobody to tell you what to do. You are on your own.
Take a flight. Soar high into the sky.
Back home there's much more. There's Mom and Dad. What more can you ask for. I still remember the day when my tuition teacher told me that she was a topper in school yet she didn't go outstation for higher studies(without any regret in her voice, if I may mention). She stayed at home and did her graduation. She wanted to be with her parents. It left me wondering what made her tread along this path. She was brilliant; she could've done lots of things. I got my answer today. When your concern for your parents overpowers your aspirations, this is exactly what the outcome is.
If I always want to stay at home, then why can't I?
But, there's something which my mom also acknowledges; and that is that these periods of separation has brought us closer. I've learnt to handle the world (there’s still to learn more). I've also understood that you can't give your hundred percent trust to anybody except your family. All of this would not have been possible, had I confined myself to that small world. So, I must return after all. This is the natural cycle. Babies are born, who grow up one day to leave their parents behind and make something of themselves. We see it in all animals and birds. So, I guess my parents are happy seeing me having reached that stage (almost).
I can't.
Dad told me over the phone that seeing my parents is also one of my responsibilities The only reason that stops me from going back home is that I'll only find myself feeling miserable when I come back to Delhi.
I am in Delhi and I get used to those rickshaw rides and washing clothes everyday (some things I don't need to do at home). There are friends to hang out with (school friends have now made their own friends and we find it hard to get along). Above all, there's a purpose. That purpose is education (we all know its importance). There's more freedom (not that there's any less at home, Mom). There's nobody to tell you what to do. You are on your own.
Take a flight. Soar high into the sky.
Back home there's much more. There's Mom and Dad. What more can you ask for. I still remember the day when my tuition teacher told me that she was a topper in school yet she didn't go outstation for higher studies(without any regret in her voice, if I may mention). She stayed at home and did her graduation. She wanted to be with her parents. It left me wondering what made her tread along this path. She was brilliant; she could've done lots of things. I got my answer today. When your concern for your parents overpowers your aspirations, this is exactly what the outcome is.
If I always want to stay at home, then why can't I?
But, there's something which my mom also acknowledges; and that is that these periods of separation has brought us closer. I've learnt to handle the world (there’s still to learn more). I've also understood that you can't give your hundred percent trust to anybody except your family. All of this would not have been possible, had I confined myself to that small world. So, I must return after all. This is the natural cycle. Babies are born, who grow up one day to leave their parents behind and make something of themselves. We see it in all animals and birds. So, I guess my parents are happy seeing me having reached that stage (almost).
it really felt that it was on behalf of all those who r out of home....
ReplyDeletewhile i was going through,it felt that my feelings were being put to words..